I've been thinking about the two week point for what feels like forever, it's been over 4 months that i have found out i am going to japan, and little by little the time remaining has whittled down. The idea of going to japan and the realisation that i AM going still hasn't dawned on me as it feels like a dream, it feels like i am rehearsing for a play that will never see performance night as i have been rehearsing for 8 years.

I think it's somewhat a scary thing to have your dreams come true as finally getting what you have dreamed of can make you feel empty without a goal. For years i have yearned for people to talk to about anime and manga and slowly i have made a few friends relating to the genre. From a 5 year old obsessed with Bishoujo Senshi Sailor moon to an ten year old who loved pokemon and digimon while starting to learn hiragana to a 15 year old discovering the wonders of Harajuku fashion such as Gothic Lolita,Decora,Gyaru and Ganguro to the 17 year old i am now who has graduated high school and finished Senior Japanese.

Everyone i know has been asking me how i'm feeling with two weeks left to go, and i honestly do not really know the words for answering, i don't feel anything really though iget strong bouts of excitement and nervs when looking at my host family information and gazing at the high school guide sent to me from the land i am yet to venture to.

One feeling i have been constant with is gratitude,gratitude for fate granting me the rare oppurtunity to host a Japanese exchange student at a school where the LOTE is chinese which in turn lead me to discover aiiu. For granting me this oppurtunity i am eternally greatfull to Aiiu.

I'm not trying to be corny or anything but i feel life has been slowly preparing me for this moment, i've changed intensely over the past 2 and a half years not only physically but emotionally as well and while i believe i could not have undertaken this oppurtunity in Grade 9,10,11 or even 12 i feel ready for it now. It's hard for me to imagine preparing for university now, but i know this experience will prepare me for the rest of my life.

So,even though i'm still busy with my job working at a gaming store,socialising and spending time as a normal aussie in my mind the clock is ticking down and the excitement of the unknown is mounting, preparations are being made and i'm trying to keep myself sane to assure myself that i am not dreaming but about to embark on a very real reality.

Time is ticking down to the most amazing experience of my life